Tuesday, October 15, 2002

 

sometimes loneliness juz creeps in even when you're among ppl.. though surrounded by frenz you still feel closed off frm the grp.. somehow more of a listener than talker.. perhaps tts why i dun really feel wanted or involved in things.. there's like an invisible wall separating us.. though it was nv a consicious effort on my part.. its juz tt ppl dun notice.. i may as well be invisible.. feels like ur an outsider watching all the action through a window.. feels so distant from ppl.. why? izzit juz mi or do u feel it too? do i see a tinge of loneliness even as u act the social butterfly, flitting back and forth in this field of frenz. does this really mean anything to u at all? behind this facade of popularity do u really have true frenz? iz it the frenship u seek or the appearence u sought? why izzit so hard to b completely independent of company.. perhaps we juz dun wanna be alone.. tts wad frenz are for i guess.. but when u think abt it... all these mean nothing..

posted by r4|n at 11:40 AM